by Jeana Johnson
As I was stopped at a red light last week, I began to feel my fists clench, my body tense, my heart rate elevate, my frustration slowly grow… “why did I have to get stopped at this light!?” In that 10 seconds, my mood shifted from optimism for the day ahead, to one of irritation and frustration. I was late to work, and this stop light is in my way!
This was not the first day I left late to work (and I’m sure it won’t be the last). It was not the first day I felt frustrated by the fact I had to stop at a stop light. It was not the first day that I let my mood be affected by one little inconvenience. It was however, the first day I recognized what was happening to my mind and my body. A little switch went off, and my thoughts shifted from “oh my gosh! Turn green already, I’m late!” to “calm down, driving to work takes time, and you’ll get there when you get there.”
I had no idea my patience for life and time had become so slim.
I looked back on the last few months and years and revisited so many of the moments I felt frustrated, agitated or downright angry because things were taking too long (you can only imagine my definition of too long…if I was feeling this way over 30 sec stoplight).
In this moment, I began to think about other areas where I was struggling my new job (things should be moving faster, I should be having an instant impact), my move to Boise (everything should be in place; the perfect job, a great new apartment, a grand social life), my friendships (I should have lots of new friends, and my old friendships should be just as they were when I left 10 years ago), …and BAM! It hit me (no not another car…an epiphany).
Not only does driving to work take time, life takes time!
Trusting the Process
Deep down we all know this, but sometimes we get out of the habit of practicing patience and acceptance. Patience for the process, and acceptance of where we are and who we are in the moment we are in. If we are lucky, we will spend most of our moments in the time in between… the travel time to and from… the process.
At this stoplight I set a new intention – to enjoy and trust the process.
This space is often uncomfortable.
This space can make us feel lost and insecure.
But, it is this space that allows us to become lifetime learners.
This is the space where we grow.
This is the space where we become all that we are meant to be.
Not more than 10 minutes later, I arrived a work relieved. I felt light. I felt trust in time. I felt trust in the process. And I let go of focusing so much on the outcomes…I practice everyday and some days are better than others. But I am in the space of growth, which gives me gratitude.
Often times we get exactly what we need, mine was in the form of 30 second stop light.
Let’s learn from each other!
What was your “BAM! (epiphany)” moment?
Emily Nielsen, CPT, is the owner of Fit for Motherhood, LLC, mother of 2 little girls, and an optimist by nature.
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